The Sissy Institute

A long time ago I was able to meet a sissy. She told me that she had followed the sissy training and had successfully completed it. I was immediately curious and wanted to know much more about it. She warned me that there is not much to be found about it on the internet. The information about the existence of the training is only shared through word of mouth. And indeed, on the internet, apart from the well-known porn, there is nothing to be found about sissies. Let alone about the training. Fortunately, she wanted to tell me more about the training and what her experiences were.

How it all started

After a while of crossdressing, being a trava and some casual dates, I wanted a serious date with a real Dominant man. I profiled myself in advertisements as a sissy, because I had read something about it and it intrigued me. Being a sissy is a lifestyle that you never really let go of. It creates an alter ego in your personality and digs deep into your subconscious. You don't become a real sissy... you are a real sissy. A sissy longs for extremely feminine symbols. The more girlish, the better. I noticed that the 'regular' sex dates via online advertisements were not deep or only focused on the act.

I went looking for a dominant man via a BDSM club. I thought that there would be more credible, dominant figures there. I made an appointment with a BDSM Master. He found my appearance unbelievable and my attitude substandard. He understood my 'want' to become a sissy and offered to put me in touch with the Sissy Institute, a kind of sissy school. I had my reservations about it and felt very insecure about the safety and discretion. Since my desire was greater than my fear, I registered myself with the Sissy Institute.

The institute is housed in an old farm in the province of Antwerp. At the institute, two Masters and a Mistress teach the lessons. Sometimes a guest Master comes. The Mistress is the head of the institute.

The intake

If you want to start the training as a sissy, you will first have an intake interview with the Mistress. The admission requirements are not entirely clear. As a sissy, you do not know exactly what they are looking for. You must demonstrate that you yourself have a sufficient desire to become a sissy. Their standards are very high and they expect total surrender and obedience during the process. During the intake interview, I was bombarded with questions. They also asked me a lot about my motivation.

They asked a lot of questions about my sexual past and how I felt mentally about it. Based on the intake, a kind of psychological profile was drawn up. In addition to good motivation, there are other requirements that you must meet. For example, you may not have a penis that is too large, you must be single and be able to wear a chastity cage permanently. You will not get in as an ordinary transvestite. You really have to demonstrate that you have feminine feelings and that you also desire that for the rest of your life.

Lastly, and also the most difficult, you are expected to give up your sexual freedom. If the Mistress deems you suitable for the training, the physical examination by the Masters follows. During that examination I had to take off all my clothes and I was medically and physically examined. I was very insecure, but returned home horny as hell. I counted the days until I would hear from them. If you are approved, you will be assigned to one of the two Masters. That will remain your permanent Master until the end of your training. 

There are never more than four people who are admitted to the training at the same time. Each Master has two sissies under his care. When one is given to a man, a new candidate is added. During the training you will only have contact with two people; the assigned Master and the Mistress. A week later I finally received the redeeming answer: I had been admitted to the training and had to report for the first session. During that first session I was assigned my Master. He would guide and train me throughout the entire process.

The start of the training

Every sissy girl knows that she exists to be used and abused by every Dominant Alpha male who wants to take her pussy and longs to be used by such men. However, your Master will decide how, when and with whom you have sex and when you are allowed to cum. You sign a contract in which you transfer that freedom to your Master. Once everything is signed and arranged, you can start the lessons. The lessons do not take place in blocks, but are personalized from sissy to sissy. You never know what will follow during a next session.

The steps are always more or less the same and the end goal is always the same: to ensure that your masculinity is completely erased and you only feel like a subgirl. The Mistress is responsible for the mental part of the training. She is very strict and is always neatly dressed, like a school teacher. She is never naked. Her lessons take place in a room with benches for the students to sit on. The Mistress's lessons are mainly lessons on how to behave as a girl. Lessons in sex education, service and politeness, sharpening your emotions, submission, applying make-up and learning to masturbate like a girl.

In addition, you also learn certain habits, such as wearing a Tena sanitary towel in your panties at fixed times every month and learning how to seduce a man. Sometimes, as a boy, I had to go to a bar and watch the Mistress seduce men. In addition to the classroom lessons, she also provides the hypnosis sessions (brainwash program) that are given in a dark room. That was actually the main part of the first part. It was a pure feminization brainwash training. Repressing male values ​​and embracing everything that is feminine is central to this.

You also have to learn to be open to new contacts and to be available for all Dominant personalities. Every now and then you get a test. Then you have to reproduce knowledge from the lessons in writing or orally. A fail means punishment and several days at the institute for far-reaching discipline. The Mistress receives evaluations from the Masters.

The physical training

Only after I had completed a certain part did the more sex-oriented training begin. The Masters take care of the sex-oriented sessions and the physical training for girls. They are also responsible for checking that their students comply with the assignments and dress codes. All sexually oriented acts are done or instigated by the Master himself. Sometimes someone is invited if necessary. This training is mainly about learning to have sex like a girl and to have the mindset of a woman.

That means longing for sperm and how to seduce men to get it. Everything in the training is focused on the pleasure of the Alpha Male. It is strictly forbidden to ever make jerking movements again. It is also forbidden to touch your clit without the Master's permission. From the beginning of the training I was addressed and directed as if I were a girl and I had no clit at all. No attention was paid to that. Of course I also had to learn to give a good blowjob. A woman came and demonstrated how it should be done.

I was also trained to make my pussy accessible at all times. For several days I had to wear butt plugs. Sometimes just a toy, sometimes a pair of panties that had a butt plug on the inside. At first they were small ones, then gradually larger ones.  From the start I also had to wear a chastity cage. In the beginning I was allowed to take it off occasionally, but after a few months it had to be on permanently.  Because of this I could no longer play with myself and I was dependent on the sessions with my Master to be able to experience pleasure. He also determined what I should enjoy and what was wrong.

Sexually oriented training

When my pussy was well trained, I was regularly fucked for a long time by my Master, but also by other Masters who assisted him. It was sometimes really exhausting. At first I was allowed to come occasionally by clit stimulation. The Master never touched it, but let me come by mechanically milking me. They had a device that sucks. A bit like a milking machine for cows. That was then placed on my clit. I was blindfolded, chained to the bed and then milked until it was ready. Sometimes I came because a lush was held against my clit until I squirted.

When I had come, the cage was immediately put back on. In the beginning I was allowed to go home afterwards. After a while it also became important that I would remain horny after coming and that I would remain submissive and receptive for a while. At the end of the training I was first milked until it was ready at the beginning of a session and then used for a long time. Every now and then another man was invited, who then obediently carried out what the Master wanted. Sometimes, as a very special exception, a Mistress was also invited.

I then had to satisfy her orally. During those sessions I had to learn what it would be like to serve a Mistress. I had to keep her pussy clean at all times by licking it empty. Not only for sexual satisfaction, but also to make her neat and tidy again: after waking up, after peeing, after her pussy had been filled by the Master. Sometimes it went quite extreme, but always within the limits that I had set myself.

Coming out as a sissy

Being submissive to another Mistress and the recognition I received as a Mistress' girl was really great. I would do that again in a heartbeat. Sometimes I had to stay in the Master's house for two or three days. Those were intense days. Fortunately, I work abroad regularly and could get away with it at home. During those days I was dominated and controlled day and night. At the end of the training I had to go out as a sissy to learn to come out as a woman and overcome the associated shame.

That was very scary and exciting. I was very afraid of the reactions, but it did ensure that I now dare to go out as a woman without hesitation. As if it were the most normal thing in the world. This usually took place in remote places. Belgium is very prudish in this regard. In the Netherlands, no one really looks strange when they see a transgender walking on the street. I usually had to register in the morning and a session lasted until late at night.

Right mindset

In the beginning I also had to stay on the farm for several days. This was mainly to get the mindset of a girl and to be brainwashed repeatedly and for a long time. At the end of the training, when the Master thinks that you are almost ready and very much desire men, He brings in the Mistress to train your submissiveness and service towards women. Only then is the Mistress naked. During the submissiveness and service training you have to make sure that the Mistress gets and keeps a wet pussy.

Usually the sissy is blindfolded during licking to avoid temptation. The Mistress determines whether you are suitable to be given to a man. When the time comes, a permanent man is found for you. Towards the end I was given a hormone treatment with estrogen that made me feel even more feminine, enlarged my breasts a bit and made me feel more vulnerable and sensitive. I was also given a testosterone suppressant.

The Exam

One day the institute decides that your training is finished and that you are a full-fledged sissy, who meets their high quality standards. Then the time has come for you to be assigned a permanent man to whom you will bond. That man will then receive the keys to your chastity cage and from that moment on is your new 'owner'. As a sissy you must submit yourself completely to Him and obey Him. A key always remains at the institute. The assignment of a man does not happen just like that. It is part of your final exam.

You can see it as a kind of final test before you get your diploma. In my case I had to stay in a hotel room for three days and was instructed to offer myself there to every man who came in and wanted to use me. After arrival I was given two hours to get ready and then had to stay in the hotel room for the next three days. I had to wait dressed in sexy lingerie until a complete stranger would come in. That could happen both during the day and at night.

The clothes I was wearing on the outward journey, together with the room card, I had to put in a bag in the hallway where it would be picked up and taken away immediately, so that I would not have access to it for the next few days. The room card that gave access to my room was hidden by the institute in the parking garage at an agreed location. I myself did not know where. The men who were selected to visit me picked up the card there and entered my room that way. Every time a man came in, I had to offer myself submissively, bend over on my knees on the bed with my pussy up and let them fuck me.

Offering myself and my submissiveness, as it were. What I didn't know myself is that this was a kind of inspection round for these men to come and look at me and test whether I could be a suitable slut for them. Some men also took their time to inspect me. Each man had to take photos and a video during the act and send it to my Master. Some men came by themselves a few times. From these, my Master chose the most suitable man who then became my future Daddy. Once you have been transferred to a suitable man, the institute breaks off all contact with you and you can no longer contact your Master.

The institute still keeps in touch with your new husband behind the scenes and as long as he reports that He is still your Daddy, they will no longer have contact with you. When you are in danger of being 'released', because a man can no longer make time for it, you must voluntarily report yourself to your Master via a kind of 'emergency' e-mail address that you may only use in that case. You will then be expected back at the institute immediately for further follow-up and to maintain your feminization until a new man has been chosen.

If you do not report yourself, they will come and find you and punishment and discipline will follow.

Looking back

It's been five years now. When I look back on the entire process, I only feel good, perfected and satisfied. I'm glad that I overcame my fear and insecurity, gave up my control over my sexuality to a man and took the step towards a sissy life. Even though I'm a man during the day when I go to work, I permanently feel like the sissy girl. Being a man is nothing more than a masquerade. I now experience dressing up as a girl in the past in the same way, but in reverse, as dressing up as a man.

It may sound contradictory, but now that I know my place - submissive to a strong Daddy figure with a high libido - I feel much more self-confident. The sissy institute has ensured, partly through their extensive education and training, that I have gotten to know myself better and have acquired the necessary knowledge about 'what' the purpose of a sissy girl is. What was initially an innocent game of dressing up has now become a lifestyle. They also made me realize that there are many straight men who are looking for and need such a girl.

Men who are often at home in a burned-out, sexless relationship and need to express their masculinity. Even though I don't live with my Daddy and he has a real woman, I get all his semen and feel very desired. For him, I am the slut where He is allowed what he has been missing at home for a long time or never got. The fact that the institute appoints the man who gets you has always gone very well so far. It feels a bit like the TV series 'blind married'. Every time it is exciting when it is someone else and a leap into the deep.

I know they put a lot of effort into finding a good match for you. A sissy is trained to submit to a strong fuck-oriented Daddy and the men they choose are well selected and screened to meet those requirements. I have not only learned to become a girl sexually, but also to feel like a full-fledged woman in everyday life. Being 'owned' by a man and having to wear a chastity cage permanently does not feel like a chain, but as a relief and a freedom. I now also fully understand what my further purpose in life is and how I should feel and behave as a woman. That gives me a good and satisfied feeling.

A well-trained sissy slut knows where a woman's deepest desires lie. A real sissy always opens up and makes herself available to every Dominant Alpha man. To be seduced, desired and used by Them. To yearn to finally receive his seed after that hard turn and to be spread, while He shows his superiority. It is a tough process. It may seem a bit extreme to outsiders, but it is something that ensures the right mindset and it really works. I also really feel like a girl now. My old self no longer exists.

The fake world of the past with 'pretending' is gone. I am now who I really am. I never want a man to see me as a boy. Then the magic is gone for me, and I suspect for him too.